Tranquillity
今日も実況中継です（笑）。
さっき書いたカフェのインターネットがうまく働かなくなってしまったので（普通は働かなくなったとは言わないよね？ It's not working anymoreっていうのは普通の日本語だと何て言うんだっけ？）諦めて外に出て、歩き出してみました。
空は灰色で、ちょっと雨が降っています。
でも傘は差さなくてもいいくらい。
霧雨？
It's really humid.
家に一度戻って、意味もなく履いていたブーツをFlip flopに変えました。
Flip Flopはビーチサンダルです。ホントはFlip-flopっていうのかな？ yeah like - makes such a difference. パタパタとかペタペタの擬音をFlip flopって言うんだよ。
その後ふらふら出歩いてみたら、インターネットがタダのBarを見つけました（爆笑）。Why the hell would anyone want to use internet when you are drinking?
I am the answer.
loneliness.
that has to be the answer.
バーテンダーのおにーさんが優しすぎてうっかり泣きそうになってしまった。He'd probably listen to my pathetic story if I started to cry. 土曜の夜なのに（現在19:29in NY）だぁれもいません（苦笑）。Oh I'm so in love with this place already. Nicy and cosy. I love cosy.
I am waiting for Mimi to finish up her f-in' job. It's such a wrong thing to do, I know. I can't be that dependent, right? I shouldn't wait for anybody. They never show up. but I know she will. Cuz she is obligated. She is my friend. That's why. That is the only reason why. I don't really know if that's supposed to make me feel better.
I always think about going to see someone like...a psychiaetrist ever since Dan suggested me go see one of those people. Am I that crazy? I mean, I don't mean to offend anyone who actually does go see them, it could be good for me too. I know that.
What's wrong with me?
Help me.
loneliness.
shit.
loneliness.
no she won't show up. i shouldn't expect anything. I shouldn'T put my hopes up. you idiot, she' not gonna fuckin show up to make you feel better?
Why would I wanna ever?
don'T mind me, i'm fucking fucked up.
i just wanna stay oblivious to everything.
every fucking thing.
I wish.
i fuckin wish.
パチパチする
2008.fucking09.fucking27
さっき書いたカフェのインターネットがうまく働かなくなってしまったので（普通は働かなくなったとは言わないよね？ It's not working anymoreっていうのは普通の日本語だと何て言うんだっけ？）諦めて外に出て、歩き出してみました。
空は灰色で、ちょっと雨が降っています。
でも傘は差さなくてもいいくらい。
霧雨？
It's really humid.
家に一度戻って、意味もなく履いていたブーツをFlip flopに変えました。
Flip Flopはビーチサンダルです。ホントはFlip-flopっていうのかな？ yeah like - makes such a difference. パタパタとかペタペタの擬音をFlip flopって言うんだよ。
その後ふらふら出歩いてみたら、インターネットがタダのBarを見つけました（爆笑）。Why the hell would anyone want to use internet when you are drinking?
I am the answer.
loneliness.
that has to be the answer.
バーテンダーのおにーさんが優しすぎてうっかり泣きそうになってしまった。He'd probably listen to my pathetic story if I started to cry. 土曜の夜なのに（現在19:29in NY）だぁれもいません（苦笑）。Oh I'm so in love with this place already. Nicy and cosy. I love cosy.
I am waiting for Mimi to finish up her f-in' job. It's such a wrong thing to do, I know. I can't be that dependent, right? I shouldn't wait for anybody. They never show up. but I know she will. Cuz she is obligated. She is my friend. That's why. That is the only reason why. I don't really know if that's supposed to make me feel better.
I always think about going to see someone like...a psychiaetrist ever since Dan suggested me go see one of those people. Am I that crazy? I mean, I don't mean to offend anyone who actually does go see them, it could be good for me too. I know that.
What's wrong with me?
Help me.
loneliness.
shit.
loneliness.
no she won't show up. i shouldn't expect anything. I shouldn'T put my hopes up. you idiot, she' not gonna fuckin show up to make you feel better?
Why would I wanna ever?
don'T mind me, i'm fucking fucked up.
i just wanna stay oblivious to everything.
every fucking thing.
I wish.
i fuckin wish.
パチパチする
2008.fucking09.fucking27
