moment of alone

its just that you didnt have the talent
why is it so hard to settle down with?
there are less people in this world who didnt happen to have it
im not alone
im not alone everybody would feel this way sometimes

there are so many flowers yet none of them are the same
they are all different
but if they are all different
they are all the same that they are all different
now you have to wonder how you are different
and you have to be comfortable with that difference

im so far away, i dont know where i am
youre rite next to me but i dont know where i am
so tell me, where are you?
if you know where you are
that will help me find out where the heck im wandering
because all i know is youre next to me

she is coming back
or rather im going back to where she has been
this wasnt supposed to happen
cuz i thought, i thought i was to be good being next to you

i cry cuz i do
theres something to be told but i dont know what that is
is there even something that i have to say? i wonder
but if there werent, why would i even cry in the first place feeling something is about to burst out real soon
hold on, i tell myself
but i dont even have something to hold on to because i dont know y i have to hold on
do you think im just feeling things that are not even there?
am i jsut scared to be happy and im i trying to feel bad?

but if i dont trust what i think i am, and what i think i feel
then whatelse is there to trust?
i trust you, yes.
but i cant trust you to know what i am, who i am, and what i feel
because if you did, and if i didnt
then whats the point of me being rite here where i am
i should be the only one to know my feelings, my thoughts
but that makes me alone
because im different
im different from everybody
becuase nobody is the same
they wouldnt know what my feelings are telling me
im the only one hearing what im hearing from my heart confused
im the only one seeing what i see because of my mind screwed up
but i dont wanne be alone

im not alone and am alone at the same time
i dont wanna be and i wanna be at the same time
a part of me says to leave her alone
a part of me says to not leave her alone
and i dont know what to do with her

it could have been really awesome if i could be happy alone by myself
just like you could actually live your life alone without letting people in
but im not that supid anymore, i know thats not possible

"When so many are lonely as seem to be lonely, it would be inexcusably selfish to be lonely alone." -Tennessee Williams

so at the same time, i dont wanna be selfish either, so i would stay